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Mother never knew about this episode or if she did she did- n't say anything. Later on that year Mother started working and this meant that I had about an hour to kill before going to school after both of my parents had left for work. I remember the first day they both left me alone at home. I had already eaten breakfast and was dressed for school, but as soon as they went out the door I was undressing and looking for some of Mother's undies to wear for the next hour. I'd try on her bloom ers, slips, nighties, even her high heels which were way too big for me. I was just like a little girl dressing up in her mama's clothes. I don't know why I did this but I do remember that I loved that free hour every morning But when I went out the door and on to school I was just like any other boy. I don t ever remember wanting to play with girls instead of boys and I don't think I ever played with dolls.

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It wasn t too long after this that my Mother got sick and soon died. My dad and I went and lived with my grandparents for a couple of years. I don't remember having the urge during this period to wear any of my grandmother s clothing. I must have been with my grandparents for about 3 years before I sud- denly got the urge to try on some of her things. Everytime I was alone I would wear her slips, bloomers and dresses. Her dresses on me hung all the way to the floor. I remember how I used to love to feel them caress my ankles when I walked. think that is the reason why even today I still like to wear full length nighties and robes instead of shorty or waltz lengt When I was about ten years old my Dad remarried and bought a farm in No Calif. and I went to live with them in the country My TV urge stopped then for awhile about a year I guess. I on: wore my Stepmother's panties and slips once in a while even the I had more chances than before. One day my folks went to the city on some business. When I got home from school I did my chores and when was through went into the house to do my scho homework. The phone rang and it was Mom calling from the city. She said that they would have to stay for about anotherhour be- fore they could start home. This meant I had about 2 3 hours before their return. As soon as I hung up the phone I got un- dressed and went to my folks room. Before this I had never gotten completely dressed. But this time I knew I had lots of

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